Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Work...work...work!

When I was not working for a year, I prayed that I had work. Now that I am working, I am praying that I could at least have a break from it. Hahaha. What an ironic and funny dilemma I have. Anyways, working in Jollibee as one of the Managers isnt really that easy. You have to at least be serious with everything you do and try to concentrate with your goal setting. It's really tough yet challenging. I have never enjoyed my life working until I started working with Jollibee.

Anyways, I just arrived an hour ago from work. I was supposed to go home at 11pm but I came home late because I had to finish some paper works at the store. It's hard but I am really enjoying the job and I love it.

For now, I'll just rest...stop working for a day. Hahaha. Nonsense...

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Are you Loved or Needed?

This has always been a question to most couples, especially before marriage relationships. I have always been asking myself with this question and until now I still have yet to find out the right answer. I have had enough experiences with regard to "love" relationships and of course, it didn't last long. Good thing, I guess, I found my soul mate...we're going to celebrate our 4th Year Anniversary this coming May 24th. But sometimes, I tend to ask myself again, do I love the person I love now or do I need my partner other than love? Does my partner ask the same question as I do now? Well, I'm totally perplexed with the way our relationship is going. My partner knows what makes me happy. My partner knows what makes me sad. My partner knows whenever I needed someone to talk to. My partner knows almost everything about me...but I still don't know if those are symbolism of love. Maybe my partner just needs me because of companionship and care. Maybe I just need my partner because of financial reasons...Maybe my partner just needs me because of attention. So many questions yet until now I still don't know the right answer.

Am I loved or just needed? I guess, it's better to say BOTH...I am being LOVED and at the same time NEEDED. I'll just stick to this idea...no explanations needed. Hehehe.

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Am I nonsense?

I have a very close friend of mine...very close one. He has some "crazy attitude problem." Sometimes he's nice to people and most of the time he gets irritated easily and do and say bad things to people and hurt them emotionally. That's one thing I really want to change from him, however this person doesnt want to change. He knows he has a problem with his temper and he is totally aware of what's going on in his life. Its just that he cant help and change himself.

Anyways, I was too tired last night...came home at around 7 pm in the condo from work. I've been at work yesterday for almost 12 hours already and was too exhausted because of too many people coming in to the store. But, anyways...when I came home I texted this friend of mine and ask him how he was doing. He didnt tell me anything except that his place has problems with wiring and almost got caught of fire. I asked him if things are already okay. Then he told me that an electrician came to his place already and checked their wiring. We were just texting and texting...until he changed his mood again and told me that "I am nonsense!" After all the things I've been doing to help him with his problems and other stuff, he'll just say that I am nonsense and that I deserve to be alone. What a comment...did not expect that from him...well, sometimes he does that but this time it really affected me so much. Anyways, I stopped texting him at that moment but before I did, I texted him and told him that "Bahala ka na nga sa buhay mo. Sana di ka karmahin sa mga pinaggagawa mo!"

Despite of all the efforts I did for him...helping him out with a lot of things, he'll just tell me those words?! I think I don't deserve to be treated like that. Am I really a nonsense person? Not worthy of anyone's attention? I don't think I'm like that. I guess, I need to learn how to be strong and not to be so nice with people. I think I really need to learn that. In this kind of world we live in, its a must that we use different masks to different types of people so that you won't get hurt a lot. Haayyy...