Old Mobile Phone - Gone Forever!!!

I once had a Nokia 6600. Bought it when I was still in Convergys, year 2004. Had it for almost four years and now it's GONE...I feel terribly bad about it but I had to let go and start moving on. It has all my contact numbers plus other memories from the past...

My friends, my boss and other people who are close to me kept on telling me that its just a material thing that was lost...well, they are all right. But still you can't just forget something that's been with you for a long time and now it's all gone. Gosh, I've been experiencing a lot of worst things in my life right now. First, my Aunt Lorna...then my phone.

I still have my Smart number so please try to contact me on that number. The Globe one is the one that was lost. Keep in touch guys!

Depressed!

I am so damn depressed right now. I have lots of problems and things that I need to think about. All the while I thought I was happy...but deep inside me, I am not. Things are really getting a lot more complicated for me. I know this is supposed to be a blog where I could share all the things I can/want to share but it's really hard. But let me start...

Mom had just recovered from her surgery. She had a cyst in her left breast and the only way to get rid of it is to have it removed completely. She felt bad about it...but she doesn't have any choice. Anyways, I tried to be strong...I never showed my mom that I'm in pain seeing her suffer...which I am so damn good. Yet, it felt not right to me. I am so damn affected by it. I love her...I love her so much. She'll have her 1st chemo on the 15th and I can't go and be there for her since I have work that I can't leave. I feel so bad...but I can't do anything.

I have a special someone who is in Hawaii right now. Let's just call this person, Love. We are going to celebrate our 4th year Anniversary this coming May 24th. Our relationship isn't as good as before. I don't know if Love feels the same way...I have found out that Love is still seeing the Ex...I felt mad. I felt like I was betrayed. But I just ignored it and still kept our relationship. Since then, I started meeting other people...which Love is totally aware of. I tried to make Love feel jealous...I dont know if it is/was effective. But its just making my life worse and complicated. I really dont know what to do now...I have lots of things to say here but I cant...its really quite complicated!

Anyways, if you are reading this...please do send me a message and give me an advice. I am totally lost...just by reading this blog, I know for sure, you'll agree.

My own version of Next In Line

I know I'm not a good singer but hopefully this one isn't as bad as a garbage.

Mom's Operation and my thanks to all

Mom's already at home now...she just had her operation a week ago. We were all worried about her but we didnt let her see it because we dont want her to feel upset and worried about the operation as well. The doctor allowed her to go home yesterday so I went to the hospital to pick her up but unfortunately, I had work and when I arrived at the hospital, they left already. Anyways, mom's in the house relaxing and waiting for her wound's to heal. She'll have her chemotherapy session by April 16th. I know this will really be a scary and difficult time for her because chemo has lots of side effects to our body system. I hope that I can be there for her once she has her chemo...I can't just leave work without asking anyone to substitute for me.

By the way, thanks to all of you guys for praying for my mom. I hope that you would still continue praying for her, most especially once she undergoes chemotherapy and her recovery. Thanks really...from the bottom of my heart. I know for sure, God sees every good thing you do and you will be rewarded. Thanks again.

I love you, Mom. I'm always praying for you.

I Need Your Spiritual Help

Help guys! I need all your spiritual help. Mom is sick and she has a cyst in her breast. Until now we are still clueless about the condition of her cyst because we are still waiting for her scheduled biopsy. I need your prayers guys. Please...

Hope everything will turn out okay. I love my mom so much.

Get Out of My Life!

Have you ever experienced being with someone you really dont want to be with? Well, at first, things are really nice between you and the other person. But after knowing each other deeper, you tend to realize that that person doesn't deserve your time and attention. You'll somehow get awakened with reality that this person shouldn't be with you in the first place.

Anyways, I am experiencing this now. I don't know how to say "goodbye" to this person because I don't want to hurt this person's feelings. It's really hard...I don't want to be rude. But this person is just making my life miserable and irritable. I really don't know what to do. This person keeps on popping out like mushrooms. Today this person is no where to be found then the next day you'll get surprised that this person is already outside your door waiting for you. Well, I'll just let this person see me but I will let this person feel in a manner that this person won't get hurt, that I don't want to be with this person anymore. Hope this person would stop seeing me.

Lonely and Sad

Wow...time is really fast. You were just waiting for the New Year's Eve to come, then the next thing you know...January of the new year has almost ended. It's like time wants to fast track your life that it wants to let you die sooner. Hahaha...what a sad thing to think about. Anyways, I'm just sitting here in front of my laptop trying to think of what to type.

To be honest, I feel so damn lonely and sad. Lonely because I have been longing for my special someone who is based in Hawaii for a long time. I haven't seen my partner for a couple of months already. I miss spending time and being with my partner all throughout the day. There's never a dull moment in my life when I am with my partner. I always feel satisfied whenever I am with my special someone.

I feel sad because I keep on thinking about my Aunt who passed away last year. I love her so much and miss her a lot. Life has been different for all of us since she died. She was the only person I used to go to whenever I have problems. I love her so much. Tita Lorna, I miss you.

So...well, you know how I feel right now. I dont know what to do this time.