Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Happy New Year to Everyone!!!

Its about time...time to start a new. 7 hours from now, a new year will start...a new beginning to everyone.

I have my new year's resolutions list already and I hope that I would be able to follow it. Hehehe.

Well, time for me to go to Mandaluyong. I'll celebrate my New Year's Eve with my family.

Again, Happy New Year to all of us!

Thursday, December 25, 2008

Christmas Time

It's Christmas time once more...but I don't really feel it anymore. Though sometimes people greet me and I greet them back, I still don't feel it. I guess, Christmas really is for kids.

Anyways, even if I find Christmas as merely for kids...I would still say that its something to celebrate. This is the only time where people meet together, laugh together, cry together and other mixed emotions. I guess, Christmas is still a special day for everyone.

I am making nonsense again...Merry Christmas to all!!!

Monday, December 15, 2008

The Zamora-Diaresco Nuptial


I just arrived last night from my friend's wedding in Nueva Ecija. Gina Zamora, one of my closest friends in UP just got married to Doney Adrian Diaresco, a very nice man, yesterday at around 3 PM. I was there to witness it and I had sung at least 4 songs during the wedding rites. It was a memorable one as I saw the groom and bride exchanging vows with a smile and with wet cheeks and eyes due to tears of joy. It was really a great day for them and for my UP Barkada. Now, two of my best of friends from UP are married...I still have me and Imee, Ailyn, Aileen, Maila and Shereen on roll call for marriage. Hehehe. I'm guessing its going to be Ailyn.

Anyways, congratulations to Mr. and Mrs. Diaresco. I wish you both a happy marriage life and I'll expect to see my godchild soon. Love you guys!

Friday, December 5, 2008

Just practising for Gina's Wedding

Just practising for Gina's Wedding on December 14th. Give your comments please...thanks!

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

All Alone Again, Goodbye Ate Ono



Month of November is nearly saying goodbye to us all and December, Christmas and New Year's day are almost coming...but that will not change the way my life is right now. I am still alone and lonely.

Just two days ago, one of my dear cousin's wife died of cancer. She was close to the family and especially me. I never saw her crying nor angry. She was the best cousin-in-law I have ever had in my life. Now that she's gone, things will not be the same again as before...just the same changes that had happened to my life after my Aunt Lorna died last year. It's really painful but I have to accept it. I know that she is happy now and that there's no more pain that would ever hurt her. I will miss you Ate Ono. May her soul be blessed and rest in peace.

Not making sense again...but I am really lonely.

Friday, October 3, 2008

Another year older...

Two days from now, I'll be another year older...turning 28 this 5th of October. But I'm not quite sure how or what should be my feelings/emotions toward this so called special day. There are a lot of things that I haven't completed/done yet. How I wish as one individual gets older, his/her career and success follow. Well, reality sucks! Hehehe.

Anyways, if in case you might want to greet me on my birthday...just send me a text and I am thanking you all now in advance. I will not celebrate my birthday...I'll just probably sleep.

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Saturday, September 13, 2008

Gotcha!!! Will I forgive???

How much can you trust someone who has been lying to you for almost 10 months? How can you trust someone who has been egocentric and user for the past 10 months? To be honest, if I'd be asked with the same questions, I would answer, "I don't know."

I might forgive the person and would still give him/her another chance especially if that person really is special to me. No matter how big the lie is or no matter how user he/she is, I would still forgive and understand. I still believe that in someways and at some point in time, the person will realize what he/she did and finally change. Unless I die waiting for it, I guess, I'd stop.

Anyways, hope we all could give a second chance to people who committed something bad to us so that they would try, think and believe that they still have a chance to change.

This is a nonsense article...:)

Thursday, August 7, 2008

Letting Go...Goodbye FOG!

It was just last February of 2007 when I opened my very first business, FOG Tutorial Center. It felt good opening a business that I will say, I really own. Things went out fine...we had a couple of tutees and I had my friends who worked there as tutors. We were able to celebrate our first year, that was February 14th were most of the lovers roam around the malls or other romantic places. The celebration wasn't that big but we did however enjoy it. It was fun. Most of the tutees were there and all the tutors were there. I really miss that day.

Well, now the time has come...the time I never dreamt of coming. Effective 15th of August 2008, FOG Tutorial Center will be closed. I have finally decided to totally close it due to many reasons. I will miss the center. I will miss everything about it. But I will treasure everything that I have learned from my first business. I will never forget all the people who have helped me and who have stayed with me through the worst and best days in the center. Thanks Christine and Rhea for being there for the center and never gave up on teaching the kids. Thanks Erwin for managing the center for a year and helping me out with all the planning. Thanks Leo for inspiring me to start a business. Thanks to all the parents who trusted us with their kids...Mrs. Castillo, Mrs. Tenederos, Mrs. Tan, Mrs. Gavino, Mrs. Cruz and to the other parents who stayed with us for either a couple of weeks or months. I really appreciate everything you did for the center and for me. I love you guys!

Again, now is the time to say goodbye. Even if its too painful, I have to say goodbye.

Paalam FOG Tutorial Center!

Sunday, July 20, 2008

Different types of Customers

I have been in the food industry for a year now...just celebrated my first year last July 10th. Anyways, within the year I have encountered a lot of challenging customers. Most of them will just shout at you and will curse you to death. Some will just approach you and quietly introduce themselves as VIP and ask for special treatment. Some will smile at you and some, deadpan.

I just had one encounter over the phone with one customer a couple of hours ago. She was claiming that there are two missing items in her order. I told her that I personally checked it and that it was released at the store 100% complete. Then she started talking in English as if she thought that the person talking to her will get intimidated and not talk anymore. To her surprise, I talked to her in straight English, so she went ballistic. She then told me that I was trying to point out to her that she was lying...I told her not. I was trying to explain to her that its part of our investigation however, she kept on talking and talking until our phone conversation got cut off. After that, I asked one of my Riders to deliver the as she claimed, missing two items. Just a couple of minutes after, Rider came back with the items I asked him to bring and approached me. He said that the customer didn't accept the delivery because she was mad. But Rider said that she kind of look like as if she found the supposedly missing items and was just too embarassed to admit it. So she just then rejected the two items I asked the Rider to bring and said that she'll report the incident to our office. To be honest, I felt initially afraid of what she said but then again, I told myself not to. I know that the delivery was complete and nothing was missed out. I hope she gets "karma" for whatever she did.

This is really one hell of an experience...

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Work...work...work!

When I was not working for a year, I prayed that I had work. Now that I am working, I am praying that I could at least have a break from it. Hahaha. What an ironic and funny dilemma I have. Anyways, working in Jollibee as one of the Managers isnt really that easy. You have to at least be serious with everything you do and try to concentrate with your goal setting. It's really tough yet challenging. I have never enjoyed my life working until I started working with Jollibee.

Anyways, I just arrived an hour ago from work. I was supposed to go home at 11pm but I came home late because I had to finish some paper works at the store. It's hard but I am really enjoying the job and I love it.

For now, I'll just rest...stop working for a day. Hahaha. Nonsense...

Thursday, May 15, 2008

Are you Loved or Needed?

This has always been a question to most couples, especially before marriage relationships. I have always been asking myself with this question and until now I still have yet to find out the right answer. I have had enough experiences with regard to "love" relationships and of course, it didn't last long. Good thing, I guess, I found my soul mate...we're going to celebrate our 4th Year Anniversary this coming May 24th. But sometimes, I tend to ask myself again, do I love the person I love now or do I need my partner other than love? Does my partner ask the same question as I do now? Well, I'm totally perplexed with the way our relationship is going. My partner knows what makes me happy. My partner knows what makes me sad. My partner knows whenever I needed someone to talk to. My partner knows almost everything about me...but I still don't know if those are symbolism of love. Maybe my partner just needs me because of companionship and care. Maybe I just need my partner because of financial reasons...Maybe my partner just needs me because of attention. So many questions yet until now I still don't know the right answer.

Am I loved or just needed? I guess, it's better to say BOTH...I am being LOVED and at the same time NEEDED. I'll just stick to this idea...no explanations needed. Hehehe.

Wednesday, May 7, 2008

Am I nonsense?

I have a very close friend of mine...very close one. He has some "crazy attitude problem." Sometimes he's nice to people and most of the time he gets irritated easily and do and say bad things to people and hurt them emotionally. That's one thing I really want to change from him, however this person doesnt want to change. He knows he has a problem with his temper and he is totally aware of what's going on in his life. Its just that he cant help and change himself.

Anyways, I was too tired last night...came home at around 7 pm in the condo from work. I've been at work yesterday for almost 12 hours already and was too exhausted because of too many people coming in to the store. But, anyways...when I came home I texted this friend of mine and ask him how he was doing. He didnt tell me anything except that his place has problems with wiring and almost got caught of fire. I asked him if things are already okay. Then he told me that an electrician came to his place already and checked their wiring. We were just texting and texting...until he changed his mood again and told me that "I am nonsense!" After all the things I've been doing to help him with his problems and other stuff, he'll just say that I am nonsense and that I deserve to be alone. What a comment...did not expect that from him...well, sometimes he does that but this time it really affected me so much. Anyways, I stopped texting him at that moment but before I did, I texted him and told him that "Bahala ka na nga sa buhay mo. Sana di ka karmahin sa mga pinaggagawa mo!"

Despite of all the efforts I did for him...helping him out with a lot of things, he'll just tell me those words?! I think I don't deserve to be treated like that. Am I really a nonsense person? Not worthy of anyone's attention? I don't think I'm like that. I guess, I need to learn how to be strong and not to be so nice with people. I think I really need to learn that. In this kind of world we live in, its a must that we use different masks to different types of people so that you won't get hurt a lot. Haayyy...

Thursday, April 24, 2008

Old Mobile Phone - Gone Forever!!!


I once had a Nokia 6600. Bought it when I was still in Convergys, year 2004. Had it for almost four years and now it's GONE...I feel terribly bad about it but I had to let go and start moving on. It has all my contact numbers plus other memories from the past...

My friends, my boss and other people who are close to me kept on telling me that its just a material thing that was lost...well, they are all right. But still you can't just forget something that's been with you for a long time and now it's all gone. Gosh, I've been experiencing a lot of worst things in my life right now. First, my Aunt Lorna...then my phone.

I still have my Smart number so please try to contact me on that number. The Globe one is the one that was lost. Keep in touch guys!

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Depressed!

I am so damn depressed right now. I have lots of problems and things that I need to think about. All the while I thought I was happy...but deep inside me, I am not. Things are really getting a lot more complicated for me. I know this is supposed to be a blog where I could share all the things I can/want to share but it's really hard. But let me start...

Mom had just recovered from her surgery. She had a cyst in her left breast and the only way to get rid of it is to have it removed completely. She felt bad about it...but she doesn't have any choice. Anyways, I tried to be strong...I never showed my mom that I'm in pain seeing her suffer...which I am so damn good. Yet, it felt not right to me. I am so damn affected by it. I love her...I love her so much. She'll have her 1st chemo on the 15th and I can't go and be there for her since I have work that I can't leave. I feel so bad...but I can't do anything.

I have a special someone who is in Hawaii right now. Let's just call this person, Love. We are going to celebrate our 4th year Anniversary this coming May 24th. Our relationship isn't as good as before. I don't know if Love feels the same way...I have found out that Love is still seeing the Ex...I felt mad. I felt like I was betrayed. But I just ignored it and still kept our relationship. Since then, I started meeting other people...which Love is totally aware of. I tried to make Love feel jealous...I dont know if it is/was effective. But its just making my life worse and complicated. I really dont know what to do now...I have lots of things to say here but I cant...its really quite complicated!

Anyways, if you are reading this...please do send me a message and give me an advice. I am totally lost...just by reading this blog, I know for sure, you'll agree.

Tuesday, April 1, 2008

My own version of Next In Line

I know I'm not a good singer but hopefully this one isn't as bad as a garbage.

Mom's Operation and my thanks to all

Mom's already at home now...she just had her operation a week ago. We were all worried about her but we didnt let her see it because we dont want her to feel upset and worried about the operation as well. The doctor allowed her to go home yesterday so I went to the hospital to pick her up but unfortunately, I had work and when I arrived at the hospital, they left already. Anyways, mom's in the house relaxing and waiting for her wound's to heal. She'll have her chemotherapy session by April 16th. I know this will really be a scary and difficult time for her because chemo has lots of side effects to our body system. I hope that I can be there for her once she has her chemo...I can't just leave work without asking anyone to substitute for me.

By the way, thanks to all of you guys for praying for my mom. I hope that you would still continue praying for her, most especially once she undergoes chemotherapy and her recovery. Thanks really...from the bottom of my heart. I know for sure, God sees every good thing you do and you will be rewarded. Thanks again.

I love you, Mom. I'm always praying for you.

Monday, March 3, 2008

I Need Your Spiritual Help

Help guys! I need all your spiritual help. Mom is sick and she has a cyst in her breast. Until now we are still clueless about the condition of her cyst because we are still waiting for her scheduled biopsy. I need your prayers guys. Please...

Hope everything will turn out okay. I love my mom so much.

Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Get Out of My Life!

Have you ever experienced being with someone you really dont want to be with? Well, at first, things are really nice between you and the other person. But after knowing each other deeper, you tend to realize that that person doesn't deserve your time and attention. You'll somehow get awakened with reality that this person shouldn't be with you in the first place.

Anyways, I am experiencing this now. I don't know how to say "goodbye" to this person because I don't want to hurt this person's feelings. It's really hard...I don't want to be rude. But this person is just making my life miserable and irritable. I really don't know what to do. This person keeps on popping out like mushrooms. Today this person is no where to be found then the next day you'll get surprised that this person is already outside your door waiting for you. Well, I'll just let this person see me but I will let this person feel in a manner that this person won't get hurt, that I don't want to be with this person anymore. Hope this person would stop seeing me.

Thursday, January 31, 2008

Lonely and Sad

Wow...time is really fast. You were just waiting for the New Year's Eve to come, then the next thing you know...January of the new year has almost ended. It's like time wants to fast track your life that it wants to let you die sooner. Hahaha...what a sad thing to think about. Anyways, I'm just sitting here in front of my laptop trying to think of what to type.

To be honest, I feel so damn lonely and sad. Lonely because I have been longing for my special someone who is based in Hawaii for a long time. I haven't seen my partner for a couple of months already. I miss spending time and being with my partner all throughout the day. There's never a dull moment in my life when I am with my partner. I always feel satisfied whenever I am with my special someone.

I feel sad because I keep on thinking about my Aunt who passed away last year. I love her so much and miss her a lot. Life has been different for all of us since she died. She was the only person I used to go to whenever I have problems. I love her so much. Tita Lorna, I miss you.

So...well, you know how I feel right now. I dont know what to do this time.

Wednesday, January 2, 2008

Happy New Year!



Happy New Year everyone! Its a start of a new year again...a time for us to contemplate on ourselves and make resolutions. We need to look back again for one time and try to think what should we do this year for us not to commit the same mistakes again. Well, as for me...I really dont know what to do and what my New Year's resolutions are...

I guess, I will just have to keep my job and work better. Social life has been good this past year...need to maintain that. My business...need to concentrate a bit to it. I have lots of things to take care of regarding the business. Hope everything will work out fine. Family...need to keep in touch with them everyday. I miss them so much, love them so much. My partner??? Well, I have to be in touch everyday. I love my partner so much. Hope my partner decides to come here in the Philippines and stay with me. Other things??? I really dont know. I'd rather just play everything by ears for now.

Happy New Year to all again!!!